It's hard raising kids. What's more hard is raising a mom and a dad. Kids, will always be kids, but they will soon realize what they are going through right now is more like a phase in their lives that they would overcome. On the other hand, parents will be parents, regardless of them being open-minded. I know they would worry a whole lot, because you're miles and miles away from them. But if I could just get across the barriers and talk to my folks, and they would actually listen instead of being these judgemental-types, I wouldn't be too hard on myself.
Yesterday, my dad turned 50. I was so excited to call him and tell him that I could not wait to come home and us being a complete family again. So anyway, I talked to him and I knew that he had been reading my blog. Heck, I was just a normal eighteen year old typing away my rants about how my day went, yet, he feels disappointed in me. I felt really bad about that. Made me feel really low and pathetic. I don't take a crap from anyone, not even a close relative, but when I listen to my dad and him saying all these things, I feel like the lowest creature known to mankind. I love my dad so much and I respect him a lot. I know he knows what is best for me, but sometimes I feel worried, that when the time comes that he needs to let me go, he would not let me. I'll always be Daddy's girl.
I am sorry for being an eighteen year old teenager,wanting to graduate to make my parents feel proud of me.That's all I ever wanted, it's just that certain circumstances made them think otherwise that it was because of certain persons involved.
This is just me.
And I am sorry for spilling my guts here.
I am in sheer desperadoes.
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9 comments:
what was he disappointed about? your blogging?
yup. afraid so. c'est la vie..
huwatt? bakit disappointing ang blogging? *puzzled*
hoy...where are you na?
Hey Nikki,
I wouldnt worry about it too much, you're right, blogging is a way to express your creative ingenuity, or rather, its a place to rant and rave about the unfairness and the injustices in the world.
I guess you could say that your dad was somewhat disappointed, although I wouldnt read into it too much, I guess he's also trying to overcome the fact that you are indeed growing up and no longer the kid that you were to him years ago.
My parents read my blog from time to time and are sometime not too overly impressed with what I get up to, but in the end, I guess theyve accepted that Im no longer the boy I once used to be and that I am also changing, along with them, and adapting to the world around.
Sorry for the seemingly long comment/unsolicited advice, but I guess heres my two cents worth.
Anyway, I heard that you were going back to the UAE for a visit, or are you there already? Take care and God bless!
Renjie
i miss you, me and katie talks about you everytime we see each other. Call us when you get here. Love ya!
dude. i know you love your dad so much, but man, dont you ever change your being "nicole" for him. remember the sermon in yfc of tito greg before? our parents may be the one who's supporting us in everything but they do not own us. i dont mean that you should disobey your dad but, you've got a mind of your own and in God's own time, they will come to understand that you've already grown up to be this wise young lady. and im sure they will be proud of you. i think they already are.
take care and i miss you na. damn bakit ka umuwi kagad? puerto galera sana tayo sa may! keep in touch! love ya-avi
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